I have Fibro, ... Fibro doesn't have me

by Brenda
(Manitoba Canada)

As I read through everyone's posts, I find my self in almost every one of them. from night jerks, to memory loss, The constant pain that no one understands, and many other symptoms. I was DX with Fibro 12 years ago and have not been put on any meds, Iv seen 3 different specialists and two DRs. who all don't know what to do for me. I have left the work force because I couldn't continue with the demands of my job ( Health care assistant) my dr said I don't qualify for disability and to go get a desk job. The on going pain I endure does not allow me to sleep at night, I can not stay in one position for long as my body starts to seize up. I stretch and walk daily to try and keep mobile. No one in my family understands what I am going through, They even think I'm faking it. I've given up on any hope that there is any help for me. I just keep quite and silently struggle through each day. Each day is always different with different types of issues. One day could be were my balance is so off I can't stand still and end up falling all day or it could be a day where my whole body is jerking. The only constant symptom is the never ending pain. But whatever the day has in store for me I endure it as best I can and meet it head on. I can either crawl under the covers and suffer the day away or I can live life as best I can regardless of how bad I feel. I make a habit of choosing the second option. And although I would never want to wish this illness on anyone, it's nice to know I'm not alone.